I am currently completely out of balance in everything! Makes me want to laugh saying it, i guess because i am such a control freak. This has been an interesting year in many ways... not because many new things happened but because many things that had not happened for a long thing happened. I am referring mostly to doubts, fears, insecurity, loss of direction, etc!
Fascinating!
Some say I feel like this because i do not have kids and so have no bigger issues to focus on
:-)
Maybe...
It could also be that since December, life has been pretty mad - but in such an amazing way. Don't get me wrong, this is not a rant- because when i look back at it - WOW! How lucky am i to have done all that?? But really...... i think some nothing time is equally important just to catch up with yourself?! This is the probably one of 3 weekends in the whole year that I am actually at home and kinda doing nothing because, actually, I have a full day of catching up with friends - again, not complaining...
I have been trying to catch up with me time on my mat but have been so resistant towards even that this past week that i have only managed one practice :-O The last retreat was so intense and i guess was the pinacle of all the events this year that it was like a little full stop. Perhaps i should not have beaten myself up this week over not practicing or not answering emails or whatever. Instead, i've jumped right into 2012 mode and have been busy planning events already - not complaining, so much fun...
What i am saying is that i probably feel so rubbish at the moment because there is no more. My brain, serotonin, spirit and all are on protest this week and i think today, i should really listen to them....and give them as much time as they need.... and not feel bad and end up eating too much chocolate in search of that good feeling - which never comes from just eating chocolate of course ;-)
Fascinating!
Some say I feel like this because i do not have kids and so have no bigger issues to focus on
:-)
Maybe...
It could also be that since December, life has been pretty mad - but in such an amazing way. Don't get me wrong, this is not a rant- because when i look back at it - WOW! How lucky am i to have done all that?? But really...... i think some nothing time is equally important just to catch up with yourself?! This is the probably one of 3 weekends in the whole year that I am actually at home and kinda doing nothing because, actually, I have a full day of catching up with friends - again, not complaining...
I have been trying to catch up with me time on my mat but have been so resistant towards even that this past week that i have only managed one practice :-O The last retreat was so intense and i guess was the pinacle of all the events this year that it was like a little full stop. Perhaps i should not have beaten myself up this week over not practicing or not answering emails or whatever. Instead, i've jumped right into 2012 mode and have been busy planning events already - not complaining, so much fun...
What i am saying is that i probably feel so rubbish at the moment because there is no more. My brain, serotonin, spirit and all are on protest this week and i think today, i should really listen to them....and give them as much time as they need.... and not feel bad and end up eating too much chocolate in search of that good feeling - which never comes from just eating chocolate of course ;-)
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